a recap of my first week of January 2026
PTL everything seemed okay but not exactly lol
Work
on Monday, IT team helped take a look at our in-house large printing machine
according to them, there is an issue in the printer itself
which means… we need to find a way to replace it…
other than that, everything is okay
thanks God I was not busy at all
so when my coworkers told me that they have an urgent protect that need me to help design
I am available to spend time doing it
Life
my daily life over the week was as usual, very normal
but I am still in a healing process
over the week, even though I was okay during day time
I could smile, laugh, be positive etc.
I was quite down at night
especially after I turned off the light and laid down on bed
I cried again….
I realized that I cried every other week
sometimes I still asked God why it happened this way…
why I was not able to be with the person I love etc.
I still thought a lot of the joyful and sweet moments I had in this relationship
I still thought about him every day
however, I have started wondering….
I wondered if I really miss him or I only miss the idea of him…
when I got to work this morning
I saw a purple Tesla again
to me that’s omg
but I am still willing to keep my promise
every time when I see a purple Tesla
I will pray for him
it is my promise to God
however, when I am able to let it go
I have no idea…
but I have to believe that with God, everything will be alright
thank you God
You are always here with me
please heal my heart
help me let it go and move on
make my heart ready and open to meet a new relationship
may God bless, Amen~