Happy New Year!!
I can’t believe it’s been 2026 already
that means half decade has already gone…
sometimes I wish time can go slower lol
as of the beginning of year
of course, there are few goals I would like to achieve throughout the year
Goal 1: Get closer to God even more
may God be my first place in my heart
in Matthew 6:33
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
this year, may I learn to pray for God’s kingdom and righteousness before everything
Goal 2: Healthy / Weight Loss / Doing Exercise
one of my new year resolutions last year was doing exercise
but I completely failed…
it’s really hard to motivate me once I stopped doing exercise
however, as my weight keep getting increased… ><
I have to do exercise for my health!!
otherwise… I will become chubby again
this year, I am planning to get a gym membership (still planning, not execute yet)
if I purchase a membership
I hope it motivates me
let’s see~
Goal 3: Letting Go
I’m still in a healing process with my previous dating
few days ago on 12/30
my coworker asked each of us to share what we would like to forget about one of the things we did in 2025
I shared I would like to forget about a relationship
my relationship with someone I want to love
in fact, it doesn’t mean that I need or have to forget about this person or the things we did
yes I might still remember him or this relationship
but to my definition
forget about means when I think about it
I won’t be too emotional
I won’t cry hard every night
I won’t feel hopeless
I let it go (I am still in the process)
I do not stay at the same place waiting forever and ever
I am able to start taking a step forward
when I can do this?
I have no idea
but with God, I know I am able to
Goal 4: Cleaning Up my Living Area
… it’s embarrassed to say
I hate doing housework
but this year I need to try and motivate myself to clean my bedroom and bathroom often
in addition, I don’t know if I am able to
I might want to decorate my bedroom and bathroom a bit
let’s see
my last wish
if God allows, may I be able to meet the man You prepares for me this year
this man will finally become to be my boyfriend, my husband, and the father of my child
yes… sometimes I struggle if I would have a chance to be in a relationship, to get married and to have a child
I will be in my mid 30s
I am not a young lady anymore
I want to be in a relationship
I want to fall in love with someone I like
I don’t know when this day will come
I cannot imagine there is such day…
but now
I know I have to get closer with God first
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
Dear God,
may this year be a fruitful and blessed year
Amen~